Resent Me? Please Don't

Back then you caught me off guard
Silly games of a feeling unknown
Played well till time allowed me to
Moved on with different paths

Four years later you wanted to see me
Just a kiss to make it real
Would be a lie if I did act so
So I decided to come clean

Your reaction of hurt and betrayal
As if I played you for a toy
Wasn't my intention to hurt your feelings
My honesty against my intuition won

Was mutual then not now
You like me still thou
Yet I'm confused
My deed of good for our sake
Is not to meet you half way!

Lost Love...

My darling, should I just call you that?
Although it may sound odd
Sweetheart suits you better
How does it feel when I kiss you?
In the dark of the moon
Amidst the stars and the balmy eve'
Romance lingers in the air...
And I'll hold onto your memory....forever!

Foolish Beat

These legs have walked towards such peril

that words cannot begin to describe
how foolish I feel now for the sinful acts

These legs have walked upon so many thorns
the trail of blood seem endless
Regret? A feeling surrounding me as of late...

These legs have walked through forbidden territories
the hope of coming back hurts the thought itself
Wisdom didn't come by sooner

So, for now...I Stop and stay still
looking around me, letting it sink in
and I fall...
cos I've failed!

I'm letting go...

What have I been doing? Please forgive me!
Been ignoring you lately, neglecting you each and everyday
by any means suppressing your thoughts.
Its not that I don't remember you
not that I don't think about you

I just couldn't bring myself to embrace you
cos its been so long
I've forgotten how much you ease my pain
How you held my hand through all the hard times
and shared my happiness

You reach for me everyday and I walk away not thinking twice
You never left my side, always in a blinks reach
though I acted blind.
I left you somewhere and forgot my way back to you
Its been so long but I took a step
with my eyes closed, heavyhearted

How did I ever think I could live without you,
We are one, you and I, that's for sure
How I missed you so, Oh how I missed you so
I was reluctant to see you, to be near you
almost tore me apart, all those emotions
that I've been holding back came slowly
my face shook and my heart cried

I dared not look away, the past flashed in front of me
I went down on my knees and embraced you tightly
I found you finally, feels so good to be with you again
don't let me go that far again
I accept that I craved for you though I didn't try harder
even if it killed me inside

Now I know how it feels like to live without you,
I don't want to be that empty anymore or ever
You'll be with me always, its natural
I wont be ashamed cos you're a part of me
in making me who I am today
I thank God for you
you are my closest friend, my savior, my healer

Yes, believe it my dearest
I don't want to hold back anymore...
I'm letting my guard down after all this time
I'm letting go...to be with you

Been searching for your name elsewhere
the stars don't seem to help me anyway
they just keep disappearing from my vision
blurry, for my eyes are sinking deep

In a pool of tears, I breathe
floating above your memories
carrying me towards hope
A land built above fantasies

Caught a glimpse of you the other day
In a memory so far away
I sacrificed my time with you
To watch you drift away...

Sigh...the moon nor sun
would smile upon me again
for I'm forsaken
and deprived of love

Devour me whole,
O' Serpent king
Play these broken chords
for they mean nothing

Emotionless eyes,
Lips sewed with endless woes
Hands burnt with treacherous words
Head hung low of shame and hurt

With a broken wing
and a bleeding heart
Empty to the core
love shall kill me with thirst...